A somewhat unexpected side effect of being a part of the Start Experiment: feelings of inadequacy.
As I look through the groups and boards, there are all these people with all these huge dreams, plans and goals. There are people willing to quit their jobs, move their families and do whatever it takes to make their dreams come true. There are people with passion and drive and community. There are people who seem to be living, breathing, dreaming and exploring the power of truly “punching fear in the face” and starting something new.
And then there are people like me.
People who have some idea of what they’d like to do, but aren’t quite sure what it will look like. People who are still too “logical” to just risk everything. People who enjoy the feelings of security that come with a stable job and a “safe” life. And then I start to wonder if I’m the wrong type of person for the Start Experiment. Am I just the opposite of the kind of person that Jon Acuff was looking for when he launched this experiment? Am I the stick in the mud instead of the person willing to do whatever it takes to live their dreams?
I am always excited to hear people living out their dreams. I am inspired by people who know, without a doubt, what they are supposed to do. I want to be that person, but right now I’m not. My Start Experiment may turn out to be a whole different journey than some people – my journey might just be about giving up my need for comfort and giving into the unknown.
Remember at the beginning of 2013 when I said my One Word for 2013 was Ready?? Well, here I am, seven and a half months into the year, and I’m still learning lessons on what ready really means…stopping some things, starting other things, learning more about who I am and where my life’s journey is taking me…
Maybe I’m the right kind of person for the Start Experiment after all.