Lately I’ve found myself torn when it comes to blogging. I have wanted to share what is going on in my life and, moreso, in my head…but I have been hesitant because of the medium in which I have chosen to communicate (blogging). Is it bad to impose self-censorship on your blog because of one or more people that you know read it? Is it bad to want the opinions and comments of a group of relative strangers but know that this is not the way you really should express yourself? I guess what I’ve been wanting to do is journal-really journal-and in so many ways my blog has become my journal. But, is what I feel the desire to say really something I want other people to read? Or is it really issues I just need to work out for myself to myself, with myself?
What is it about this whole thing that is so strange and difficult yet beautiful and exciting at the same time? Do I share my heart here, hoping for a sympathetic ear…even if it is more guarded and not as blunt? Or do I vent and cry and wail in my private journal that no one else will see…and possibly feel more alone and isolated in the process?